SSSoooo tired

I have been coaching a high school softball team. Most of you know that softball is a love of mine. Coahcing is a way for me to give back to the sport that saved me from a crappy life.

I give so much to the girls that I am butt tired all the time. I have so much energy when I am around them but once I am home, stick a fork in me, I am done. I dont even give myself time to eat when I am aroudn those girls. Which is amazing considering they eat all the time. All I do is guzzle gatorade and water while yelling at them. They are used to me yelling so dont think it is a bad thing.

I feel like I am wrong in doing this caue I am taking away time from my own kids. Funnypart is I think my kids are ok with that. They can get away with more when I am not home. Daddy tries be on top of stuff but honestly he has to learn to mulit task. On the weekends I try to make it up to each of the kids. I am planning on going to a tea party with Liz next weekend. I got to talk to my dad and get Josh fishing. Mac just loves me beign around period so that easy. Play with him for a day and snuggle at night ngiht time and he a happy boy.

Now if I can figure out a way to just be Mary I will be a happy person. Right now it feels like I am putting me on teh back shelf. I have had my own softball team practice so that helps. Even there though I feel as if I am putting the team in front of me. I guess I just need a vacation. Like that is going to happen.

I really had nowhere I was going with this blog. Guess I just had to vent. Thanks for letting me. Now go hug someone you love.